End it All
no matter what I do
no matter how hard I try
I won't ever find myself,
I won't ever know why.
a blank face
an empty soul
a systematic problem,
my life is one big hole.
why can't it be over?
why won't it just end?
I'm only happy in my nightmares
where death is my only friend.
I've surely waited long enough
I hope my time will come soon
so I can see the sky turn black
and blood take over the moon.
Forget me
You don't have to think about me
You don't have to call my name
You don't have to pretend you cared
You don't have to keep playing this game
You don't have to look at my old photos
You don't have to hear me cry
You don't have to pretend you listened to me
You don't have to watch me lie
You don't have to remeber the past that once was
My soul, my eys, my tears, my hatered
I did it just becuase.
Fuck me over
why does everything have to be so FUCKING complicated?
I don't know what to think
I have no emotions and I dont know what the hell is going on
my head keeps spinning why wont it stop?
tears stream down my face and I dont know why
no pain inside this empty soul..
I pushed it to the back not hoping for it to come again
I hate myself for feeling this
I hate myself, I do.
please dont stare at me your eyes make me insane
I know who I am and I know where I lie.
why the FUCK cant I sort thing out?
my life is dead and lost
just turn away and forget me wholly
you FUCKED me over now do it again
I know your goal is to stab me in the back and drain all my blood
stop thinking you're the greastest becuase no one FUCKING cares
stop thinking that you're perfect.. no one sees a flaw becuase your a
FUCKING ugly ruin
I'm sorry that you thought I was someone different..
I'm sorry that you thought I was nice
I really dont give a FUCK what you think
so just kill me already
You saved me
lost in my daydreams
filled with the hope of decay
lost love, lost souls, lost eyes for me
how will I ever repay?
thank you my love
for all that you have done for me
the mist and the fog have cleared
I can now see
I want to live,
I really want to
but how can I live
without you?
when I stare
at your angelic face
I know that I am saved
by your wings, by your grace
thank you, oh thank you
dear love of mine
the one thing that will draw up closer
can only be called time
Death Dictionary
tonight's the night
my one last chance
to have a better life
to take all that I can
I may hurt many
but they have hurt me too
so don't act like you're innocent
I know what you've done
I can't take this pain, this greif or this sorrow
hopefully a better day
will come tomorrow
Crazy
I left it all behind me
to find a new beginning
I am standing perfectly still
but this world continues spinning
lost in the blurr
lost in all this confusion
my mind is going numb
overwhelmed with this delusion
I don't know where I'm going
I don't know when it will end
latey, from what I've heard
insanity is the new trend
you think it's cool to be called a schizophrene
you think it must be cool to hear voices
it's sad that you follow the crowd
and it's sad that you don't make your own choices.
Don't let me go
you may hear lies seep from my lips
but you will never know the truth
too many layers, too complex
for you to comprehend
though I wish you could understand
I scream it in your face,
the truth bursts out of me
I don't really want to die
I call you, i beg you
please help me, please save me
what have I done?
soft whispers of the truth caress your ears for hours
though your blank eyes stare back at me
you know nothing of the truth
you can never save me now
I am nothing
I just want to be satisfyed with myself
I want to go to sleep and never wake up
why won't it just end like I want it too
I cry out for help
but you just stare me in the face and walk away
I am forever damned and eternally dead
oh I wish things were not like this
I waste me life away
too weak to move a muscle
just rip out my insides
becuase I will never feel anything
not the sunshine in the morning
not the wind on my face
not even the whispers of the shadows
they all burn my heart and sting my soul
not knowing how to end this fairytale gone wrong