A Poem

by Azael

I thought my life would turn out fine,
that I could leave my woes behind,
that I could slip from the ties
that hold me down and make me cry...
but now I know the world to well
and I wont fall for it again.
I asked for peaches, but...
I got lemons.
I thought if I opened my heart,
a friendship might just start.
but I got ripped apart
so I'll sink into the dark...
pit that I call my life
with walls so steep I cannot climb
I'll carve steps into my arms
with the sharpest blade that I can find.
I thought that healing could begin
that I had some special light within
people could understand. and,
not take for granted,
but faith I've learned is nothing more
than a trickster who leads you on
he waits till you let down your guard
and you feel safe, but you're not.
I thought that I could be brave,
I told myself if I didn't care
that their words do not hurt me
but now my love of life is fear
and I dont want to live,
because no-one else will like me ever
I am not worth friendship just
something to walk all over.